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[Mar. 3rd, 2006|08:45 pm] |
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Hello to all. No rants to speak of today. I know this is rare, but I am going to skip straight to Good Shit.
Good Shit
1. Today was actually turned out to be pretty fun. Hung out with friends. One of which I meet for the first time. Played some DDR for a little while. It was hot, so we all decided to go swimming. Something I haven't done in god knows how long. That was a lot of fun. The water was cold as hell but as my phone and others say "See Who Gives A Fuck" Wrestled around. It was cool. Then everyone got changed and pizza finally came. It was good as always. Then certain music created the mood for everyone to start dancing. Which was a lot of fun. Some bumping and gringing going along. Like we were all in a club. Got complimented on my dancing as well. Which was very cool as well. I also got to do some break dancing. Which is also another thing I go complimented on. That was fun. I love messing around and just break dancing out of nowhere. Then everyone got tired and everyone mellowed down. Just chatted and played some Karaoke, which as always is a lot of fun. All in all. It was a great night.
2. I still have a job. Things got explained. Got paid my money from work I did last friday. I will be working again next week. I hope nothing will come up. I don't feel like missing out on my money that I would be making.
3. My uncle seems to be doing better. The doctor said that he may be able to walk under his own power soon which is very good news. My grandma's eye surgery went well. She is doing pretty good.
4. Stuff for music is going well. Having fun talking to other Roadrunner Road Crew members on online. A huge opportunity to actually support a really badass band that is on the rise. Becoming good friends with the lead guitarist. Only problem is the password I was given isn't working. Got to get back to him on that. I have an interesting proposition going on. Having to do with music. Not sure what to make of it just yet. I will have to think on that for a while.
4. Going to see Ultraviolet tomorrow with a bunch of friends tomorrow. It looks good. Got the theme for the movie as one of my ringtones. Hope to have another fun night tomorrow. Anyone interested, should tag along.
5. I got a new phone. A very good friend of mine hooked be up with a blue razor. Got a custom pic with a bunch of cool ringtones. Once I fully pay him off, I will be able to make my own ringtones and my god am I going to have so much fun with that. I got so many ideas rolling around through my head, it's crazy. Anyway, that should bring you all up to date and what is up in the world of Dan. Hope everyone has a good weekend. Take care all.
-Dan |
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[Feb. 27th, 2006|11:43 pm] |
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Rants just continue to pile up today.
1. My uncle suffered a massive heart attack around 5 this morning. I was a constant wreck all day. I was woken up at 5 by this news. Went to the hospital with my uncle. I've been feeling like absoutle shit. I have been put in my own world and I haven't really told anyone about what happened, which may have lost my job for it. It's really hard for me to talk about without breaking down. This whole thing has really messed me up. My mind has been tearing me apart. Besides this, I don't know how else to tell anyone. I hate having to keep to myself about this. The whole thing is really putting me in a place that I haven't been in, in a long time. I have really nothing good to speak of at the moment. I just needed to get this off of my chest. Take care all. I hope everyone is feeling better than I am.
-Dan |
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[Feb. 19th, 2006|05:58 am] |
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Hello to all. Normally I do my daily rants/good shit, but today, I am making an exception. Thursday night was an awesome night. I went to the Jagermeister tour fearturing Scum Of The Earth, Bloodsimple, and Disturbed at the Club Cinema. As usual I heard a bunch of people I knew were going and as usual I didn't see them. Big fuckin surprise. Anyway, Me and my friends didn't get there as early as we should have, so we didn't get next to the guard rail like we wanted. Saw a bunch Jagermeister posters and jacked those for ourselves. It took so long for the first band to get on. It got so bad that people were getting pretty annoyed. Finally, this guy known as Lizard Man, came on stage and got the crowd going. He would come back throughout the show, but I will get there in a minute. Scum Of The Earth finally comes on. The lead singer named Riggs, looked a lot like Rob Zombie, except a little bigger and plays guitar. Funny because him and Rob have done a lot of stuff together. Anyway, they sounded pretty good. They also covered Superbeast and Dragula. He also kept on switching his guitar after every song and their was this one song where he had a guitar obivously custom made. It was see through and it you could see alcohol in it. I thought that was pretty cool. Then after they got off, it seemed like it was going to take a little bit for Bloodsimple to come on. Then Lizard Man came back out on stage and did some freaky shit. Putting stuff in and out of his nose. Really deep in his nose. Then once it was so deep that he pulled it out through his mouth. It was fuckin sic. Then Bloodsimple came on and as usual they kicked some serious ass. I screamed and sand along to every lyric of every song. I got so into it. Got so into, I even got compliments from other people in the crowd. Which I thought was awesome. Then Lizard Man came back on and did even more crazy shit. Along we that he also was talking about people picking there nose and if they said that they didn't then they were lying. I thought that was kind of funny. Then he showed us one of the many uses for a condom by putting it on his head (no, not that one), starting blow air until it swelled up like a ballon and popped. Fuckin funny shit. Unfortunately after that, it started getting really cramped, that and the fact that I didn't eat anything during the day, I started not to feel well, so I got out of there. I caught the show but not very close up. I wish I did, but, oh well. Not too big of deal I guess. I did get some shots with my camera of Disturbed on stage. Not the best quality, but considering where I was, they are really good. They put on one hell of a show. Loved watching Dan the guitarist of Disturbed play the solos from songs off of Ten Thousand Fists. Which is what he should have done from the beginning but, still good stuff. After the show, I meet back up with my friends, bought myself a Bloodsimple shirt which I am glad to finally have, and headed on home. Minus not feeling well and even though I couldn't get my hands on any Jager. Damn well better get some for my 21st birthday in a few months. I did have an overall good time. Concerts seem to be the only way for me to really enjoy myself. Can't wait until my next show. Anyway, I got some pics up in here. As I said the pics of Disturbed aren't the best quality, but considering where I was, I got a really good shot. Hope you all enjoy.
-Dan
Disturbed Poster (Note This Poster Did Actually Look Good Before The Show)
Lizard Man
David Of Disturbed
David Again
David For The Final Time
A Little Blurry But That Is Dan Of Disturbed
Backdrop Of The Area Around The Stage (Note Disturbed Being Stage)
My Awesome Bloodsimple Shirt |
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[Feb. 15th, 2006|06:41 am] |
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Hey everyone. I am going to be posting a link to my writings. This is going from one I wrote way back in late 2004 until my more recent. I am curious on everyone's thoughts on my works. I do have a lot of entries on there, but I am doing this for a reason. You can comment on as many of my writings as you like. The more info back that I get, the better. I do apprecaite any type of feedback. Thanks.
http://www.darkpoetry.com/dp/Silent%20Assassin |
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[Feb. 14th, 2006|04:19 am] |
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Hello everyone. I know it has been ages since I have posted on here. I have been meaning to put entries on here that are on my myspace. So for now on I am going to be posting in here and there. For those of you who don't know, I arrange my entries as rants to good shit. It's more of a way of me organizing my thoughts. Hope you all enjoy.
Rants:
1. Valentine's Day...I dread this day every year. I am always alone. For the past few years anyway. I have only had one Valentine's Day where I wasn't alone. One year out of almost 21 years of living. I hate that. Even if I am in the relationship, which seems to be a rarity in itself, something bad always happens. It's not like I am a bad boyfriend. Every ex that I have, reguardless of if they hate me or not (even though I rather not have people hate me for things that I don't do, but I guess that is my luck) will tell you that I was loyal, great boyfriend, who is always doing things for them. Just my luck again I guess. I guess people who actually treat girls right get pushed to the side. Oh well. Another year sitting at home. Eh, maybe I'll drive over to the mall or something. Since I get out of BCC at around 2, I will probably head over to the mall, get something to eat, maybe buy myself something, and I guess head home. I would rather that change but it probably won't.
2. Still looking for musicians in south florida who love metal and to play it. Anyone interested or anyone who knows anyone that would be interested, please contact at custommetaldesign666@hotmail.com
Good Shit:
1. Thursday, I am going to the Disturbed/Bloodsimple show, where hopefully I will be able to meet Tim fuckin Williams. Bands usually hang out after the show, so hopefully I will be able to. For those of you who have no fuckin idea who I am talking about. He use to be in a band called Vision Of Disorder (A.K.A. V.O.D.) He did amazing work on Roadrunner United for the track called "Army Of The Sun". He is now in the band Bloodsimple which some of you may have heard. If you haven't, you damn well better. You have no idea what you are missing out on. A track on their latest album, he did with Chad Grey of Mudvayne. Anyway, I saw them live once before with Throwdown and Soulfly and they were fuckin incredible. I will be screaming along to every lyric. Of course I am looking forward to seeing Disturbed who I have been a fan of for so many years. Their latest album "Ten Thousand Fists" is their best album by far. Musically it will surpasses anything that they have done in the past. So, I am going to have a good time there. It is at Club Cinema, so if anyone out there is going, let me know so we can meet up before hand.
2. I finally found me a paying job. It's just something I am going to do until I can find something better or until I can get myself into the music industry. Got paid $55 last Friday and I can make a whole lot of money in this. Which is a life savior to know that I have and can use my money.
3. Got a few parties to go within the next week. Hoping to have a good time. Drinks, friends, other interesting people. Good motherfuckin times.
4. New In Flames album titled "Come Clarity". It is an amazing awesome. They never disappoint. They even have a song on there that has a female vocalist that sounds so much like Cristina Scabbia of Lacuna Coil, but it's a actually a swedish female vocalist Lisa Miskovsky, which is fitting since that is where In Flames hail from. I actually checked her out and she is definietly someone who you wouldn't see doing that kind of music but she fits in well with the In Flames sound and of course their vocalist Anders Friden. Anyway, album is seriously badass and you should all check that out.
-Dan |
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[Jan. 26th, 2006|09:58 pm] |
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Stuff Like This Always Seems To Happen
Hello to all. Here is my latest edition of Rants/Good shit.
1. Somethings never change for me. Someone was again is trying to screw me over and may just get away with it. Someone apparantely stole my credit card information and has been charging a whole load of shit on it. I think it was somewhere around $2,000 worth. Everyone besides my family thinks that I did it. Mostly because it's shit that I would like. They traced it back to my computer. Which I don't know how they could. What I say on the bill for it of when it was paid for and everything. I wasn't home at the times it happened. I am really scared because if they don't find out who did this, I maybe liable for it. Which means, I could go to jail for fraud. When I didn't do everything. Whoever did this obivously knows me and wants to get me. I don't know who it is, but it is really fucked up. Another time where I get in trouble for something I didn't even do. What also pisses me off is that the credit card company is suppose to notify us of something like this going on. From the dates, this was done a month ago and guess what company it was....Capital One....What bullshit that is right there. This all powerful credit card company fucked up big time, but that doesn't matter to me though. I hope they find out whoever did this. It would be really fucked up if I get screwed over because of this. Once I do, I am screwed for life. No good will come out of my life because of this. So many negatives. I really don't know what to do. I have never been in this fucked of a situation in my life. Other times, I at least had something to do with it. Now, someone set me up and I may go down for it. There isn't even anything that I can do about it. All I can do is tell the truth to these people. If that doesn't hold up for whatever reason. My whole life will be fucked. I will be royally screwed. I hope this will all work out. I really do. I really do... This is stressing me out way too much. I have never been so afraid of anything this bad before. It's fuckin killing me. I just wish whoever it is, that they would stop this sick joke. If they are trying to fuck with me, trying to ruin my life, trying to depress me, then good job. It's working.
Good Shit
1. Nothing good to speak of at the moment...
-Dan |
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[Jan. 13th, 2006|01:48 am] |
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Thanks For Everything
Thanks for forgetting I even existed
Thanks for letting me slip away
Thanks for not fighting for me
Thanks for putting false hopes and dreams into my head
Thanks for making me believe I could be happy
Thanks for abandoning me when I need you the most
Thanks for the meaningless kiss
Thanks for the meaningless kind words towards me
Thanks for the meaningless feelings
Thanks for all that you put into me just to tear it back out
Thanks for all the shit you put me through
Thanks for bringing me down
Thanks for showing me that even in the best of situations they never last
Thanks for showing me the little hope in the world
Thanks for showing me how much I meant to you
Thanks for showing me what I did for you meant to you
Thanks for poisoning my live
Thanks for the heartbreak
Thanks for taking me and leaving me with nothing
Thanks for using me and throwing me away
Thanks for breaking me
Thanks for bringing light then turning it back to darkness
Thanks for all of the pain and agony
Thanks for doing all these things that so many others have done before you
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[Jan. 12th, 2006|12:21 am] |
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Things That Never Stay
No matter what I do
Everything I have always falls through
No matter how big or small
It never mattered at all
Helpless
Hopeless
Maybe I’m not worth it
Maybe I should rot in this pit
Why do I try
It will always die
How come I have to live through all my fears
When all it does is create more tears
I need a way out
That I can’t doubt
What I’ve lost
All at a cost
Fearing the worst
It’s seems like a curse
That only eats away
At the things that will never stay |
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[Jan. 6th, 2006|02:27 am] |
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The End Has Just Begun
Image is everything
Judging is accepted
World is based on what you see
Seeing what is on the outside
Rather than the inside
Overlooking good deeds done
Attention towards others won
Watching people’s lives turn to shit
Having the things you do for them thrown into a pit
The world doesn’t care
People don’t care
No one cares how you feel
They don’t care if your ever found
They would rather see you kneel before them on the ground
Bring them all the attention
Watching others feed into their lies and deception
Once thinking that there was a connection
Now knowing that it was only an infection
Spread upon by the bullshit heard everyday
Always regretting listening to the words people say
God they need to go away
Forget it
I’m done
For them
The end has just begun |
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[Dec. 31st, 2005|03:16 pm] |
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Hello to all. Well, it is yet another year gone. 2005 was definitely filled with it's ups and downs. I have lost a few friends. I have gained a lot of friends. Which I am very happy for the certain people that I have meet. I did some stupid shit the year before. Which I then corrected at the beginning of the year. Thank god for that. I have still made more stupid mistakes this year, which did suck, but most importantly, I learned from all of them. In turn, I have also done a lot of good things for people. Which I am very happy for. This was my most concert year seen year by far. I have seen Death By Stereo, God Forbid, Soulfly x2, It Dies Today, Devildriver x2, Machine Head, Shadows Fall, Lamb Of God, Slipknot, 3 Inches Of Blood, All That Remains, Six Feet Under, Chimaira, Into Enternity, Opiate For The Masses, Ill Nino, and Static-X. Quite a list if I do say so myself. This is also my first year being apart of the Road Crew/Street Team for Roadrunner Records. I have had a lot of fun doing that. Hanging up posters. Getting the word out on bands. Also, being apart of the road crew has it benefits. Like meeting Devildriver twice. Meeting Soulfly, unfortunately not Max, but I did get to meet Dana, his Nephew, who is in a band called Incite. I got to finally chill with the head of the Road Crew, Matt Pileggi. Pretty cool guy. Had a few drinks with him. He explained how he got to where he is, because I want to one dayd o something in the music industry. Also got to meet the boys of Ill Nino. Some cool motherfuckers right there. I am looking forward to the many concerts that I will be going to in the upcoming year. The people I will meet. The things that I will do. Next year I am going to make a good year. I am starting College soon. Going to be getting a job within the next couple of weeks once I get situated with school. I am not going to let shit get to me anymore. I mean I realized that I never cared what people thought, so why should I give a shit with what people say. My true friends and I know the truth and that is all that matters. Separating myself from the drama as much as I can. So with that being said, I hope everyone out there has a nice new year's eve today and my best of luck to everyone in the upcoming year.
-Dan |
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[Dec. 28th, 2005|06:31 am] |
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Hello to everyone. I know this seems like a strange title for a blog, but you will see why I titled it what I titled it. I have grown so tired of people's shit, that I have had to resort to this. These are a few rules that everyone will need to know in order to be my friend.
1. Don't judge. If you do, you will never know me and will miss out on a whole lot.
2. Don't fuck with me. If you do, I will return it to you tenfold.
3. Don't talk shit behind my back. If you do, I will more than likely find out about it one way or another. I always do and I will get you back for it.
4. Don't assume that I did something or made you feel like something changed when I didn't do anything. If you do, that will just push you further away from me.
5. Don't try to make me feel like shit for something I didn't do. If you do, I won't feel bad. I won't give a shit. I will know the truth and people who are my friends will know the truth. So have fun trying, because it will all blow up in your face when you admitt that it's not true. Then after that, you won't like me very much.
All of these things I don't respond too well to. Makes me feel icky. I don't need any of it and I will no longer tolerate it in any way shape or form. Anyone tries any of these things on me again, they will get exactly what is coming to them from it. Whether it be from me, others, or me along with others. I am done with this bullshit. I'm trying to get my life in order. No longer is there room for bullshit like this. Now, I do know people who don't do anything like this. You know who you are. You are all cool. So you have no need to worry. Others who have or will do this in the future will get exactly what is coming to them. I don't mean to sound threatening in anyway, but this needed to be said. I am tired of all of this drama bullshit coming my way. I am going to be happy without this shit in my life. I am going to be happy whether certain people like it or not. My true friends out there I know will like it, because they like seeing me happy. So, with that being said, people who try this shit in the future, will get what is coming to them. People who don't, will like me very much. Thank you to all of those who don't. I don't know what I would do without you guys. Also, for all of the people in future who won't do any of these things to me. Take care all and happy holidays.
-Dan |
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[Dec. 25th, 2005|04:17 am] |
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Hello to all. Another night where I can't sleep. Wow, like that never happens... Figures that it would have to happen on Christmas eve. Anyway, somethings that have been on my mind lately that I need to get off of my chest. It's pretty much some of the same old shit, but little twists thrown into the mix. Things like, people not being straight with me at all. If I never find out things for myself. It's always kept from me. Then when I see it happen in plan view they try to play it off like nothing is wrong. Same people still saying shit about me. What a surprise right? I mean, I am not even doing anything. It's not like I am starting shit or even say anything. I would understand people's actions towards me if I was. Then I would have it coming, but I am just laying back. Trying to get my life in order. Trying to be "happy" for the holiday season. I am not even doing or saying anything to anybody. As usual, that can't happen. I also don't like people who try to always show me up on things, when they know I can't do something. They make it look like they are better than me at it. God, I hate that. Also, people using me for certain possessions that I have. That really pisses me off. God, I am always in such a happy mood right. That sounded convincing right? Shit. Oh well. So, bottom line, people suck. Not all of them do, but a lot do. **sighs** Ok, maybe since I got that off my chest, maybe now I will be able to go to sleep. I do feel a little bit better now that I did that. Oh, shit. A Christmas Story is on...I know it's after 4 in the morning and I know this is a 24 hour marathon, but it is getting really tempting to watch it. Hopefully I will sleep. I would like to get some sleep before I am suppose to wake up in a few hours. Merry christmas all. I hope to everyone who deserves it, gets what they want for Christmas. Happy holidays to all and to all a good night.
-Dan |
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[Dec. 17th, 2005|11:02 am] |
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Hello. It was a hell of a time last night. Me, my friend Victor and Cesar, went to see Opitate For The Masses, Ill Nino, and Static-X. It was a hell of a time getting there though. The mapquest directions were horrible. Apparently I could take Sample all the way down to Federal and I would be fine. Anyway, we got there about 40 minutes before the doors opened for the show. We didn't have too much time to put up stuff and since we got there so late, we couldn't chill with Ill Nino before the show, which did suck but oh well. We had to get the place tagged and ready for the show. Taking pictures as well of our work to send into Roadrunner to show that we were doing our job. While we were doing this, we were lucky enough to have Lazaro Pina, the bass player of Ill Nino, came up to shake our hands. Pretty much thinking us for all of the help and support. Which was very nice and cool of him. We actually were able to get the place tagged up and ready for the show. Got all the pics we needed. Which felt really good considering the hell it took to get over there. Anyway, the first band, Opiate For The Masses came on and they were bad ass. The drummer what fuckin crazy. He was swinging his arms around. Throwing his drum sticks up in the air and catching them. Someone even threw him one while he was playing and still caught it and kept on playing. So, they put on a hell of a show. The lead singer, resembled a lot like Billy Idol. The way he dressed and looked, really gave me that idea. Anyway, we were getting ready for the crazy latinos of Ill Nino. We were ready and it was fuckin crazy. They opened up with "This Is War" and shit started going crazy. Every song was better and better. Probably the best part of Ill Nino's set was they had the drummers from all of the bands there had a drum jamming session right there on stage. It was great. The drummer from the Opiate For The Masses accidently kicked his over, so then he went over and was drummer with the drummer from Static-X. That was fuckin crazy. During this whole time, my body was getting fucked up. My forearms kept on being banged aganist the guard rail. Their was even this one girl crowd surfing, who I happen to know, got pushed over. When she did, her foot kicked me in the back of the head and my head slammed right on the rail. It fuckin hurt, but I was alright. I didn't care. I was having a good time and I wasn't going to let that ruin my night. The moshing for Ill Nino's set was crazy. It was all over the place. I was even involved in it. Which was nuts. After they were done, we just chatted up with a bunch of people at the show. It was a while before Static-X. Even though my body was fucked up, I ready to see Static-X again for the first time in a few years. It was great. They opened up with "I Want To Fucking Break It" The whole time they were up there it was great. They were even joking around while they were on stage with shots and were even playing Rick James' Supernatural. That was hilarous. Also Wayne Static, lead vocalist and guitarist of Static-X, annouced that it was Tony Campos' birthday. So a big happy birthday to you man. Koichi Fukuda, the lead guitarist, was tearing ass throughout the entire set. Adding his touch on everything. I remember when I heard their first album with him on it. I was looking forward to seeing him the first time I saw Static-X a few years ago but unfortunately that wasn't possible. I was glad to finally see him do what he does best. Throughout the entire night we were all in each other's faces screaming the lyrics to all the songs, making gestures to each other as well. After the show, we went over to the merchcandise booth and found all of the members and got to chat and take a pic with Cristian and the rest of the boys from Ill Nino. Overall it was a great night. Victor, always a pleasure working with you for Roadrunner. Cesar, it was great to finally go to a concert with you. Victor, can't wait to do another show for Roadrunner. Always glad to work with you.
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[Dec. 10th, 2005|12:05 pm] |
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| | Chimaira - Inside The Horror | ] |
Hello all. Well, it seems that everyone else in the world seem to have fun last night and I didn't I had to sit home and deal with more yelling from my parents and my brother. Some over the stupidest shit, others over the same old shit. I was practically in tears over it. I couldn't get out. I had no place to go. Even when I tried to stand up for myself, it just got worse and worse. So, while others were out party, buying stuff, and other things, I had to sit home and take this verbal abuse like I always do. I mean I am use to some of the shit they pull, but last night was just fuckin ridiculous. I haven't felt so down on myself in quite some time. I felt like absoutle shit and there was nothing I could do about it. Not a damn thing. Well, it seems to be starting up again. Hopefully I will be able to finish before it comes my way and maybe I will actually be able to get out of my house and actually do something. Depending on what others are doing. I just don't know. Take care all, may everyone else's day go better than mine.
-Dan |
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[Dec. 9th, 2005|03:55 pm] |
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| | As I Lay Dying - Falling Upon Deaf Ears | ] |
Hello all. Well it is other day to be very annoyed with my parents. First off. I had to get a ride from my dad to go to BCC for my advisory appointment. Which everything was fine there. Reason for this was because, I got into a big agrument with my mom since she thought it was "leaking". I know for a fact that it's not but, she loves to assume that she is right on everything that she does and I overheard me talking to a friend of mine to where I was suppose to go tonight and then here she is screaming in my fuckin ear telling that I can't go with my car there. Note that my car isn't leaking, but my mom assumes she knows everything when she doesn't know much of anything about cars. Then her constantly telling me I need a job which I am going to get, I don't know how much I have told her that in one day. Then she tries to fix my phone by all she is doing is getting me the same piece of shit that is going to fuck up eventually anyway. I told her that their were plenty of phones that were cheaper to afford than to replace this one, but does she ever listen to me, of course not. Why would I be right? Then she yells at me afterwards saying "oh when you get a job and you get money, you can handle your own way" Saying it very sarcasticly. Making me feel even more like an ass. Like I need all of this right now. Today was suppose to be a good day, when my parents just turn it to shit. Of course my dad takes her side. God forbid I am right. Jesus fuckin christ, I hate living her. I just want to shut them up and get my entire family out of my fuckin live. They always find little ways to piss me off. They know it does, but choose to do it anyway. Why, I don't know, because everyone seems to love aggravting me. **sighs** I got to get out of here. Maybe I can get this off my mind. Farewell to all. Hope everyone else has a better day than I do.
-Dan |
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[Dec. 7th, 2005|05:28 pm] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
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| | Trivium - Like Light To The Flies | ] |
Die Alone
Some people think that they can do no wrong
They think they can fuck over as many people as they want
They think they can get away with anything
But wait
Here comes karma to smack you in the face
Then that doesn’t even work
Because
They play the victim
They blame everyone else for their problems
Why
Because people like that get off on being the victim
To have everyone pity them
Time and time again
Shit never changes
But when people learn
These assholes
Bitches
Dicks
Will have no one to turn to
Karma will really be working on them
I can’t wait to see that
People who have done me wrong
Are just looking for a downfall
Because all the lies that made you
Will in turn destroy you
And who are they going to cry to
No one
Because in the end
They will die alone |
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[Dec. 6th, 2005|12:14 am] |
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| | Bored And Not Myself | ] |
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| | Trivium - Falling To Grey | ] |
Hello to all. Well, I am hoping for some sort of change for this week. Going to be home alone for the week. Parents went on a crusie. I have partically nothing to do. I know have a queen sized bed and all to sleep in, so I guess I will do that. I also recently got this huge spa that I guess I will go in. It's got so many jets. One on the side can do your whole body, but is quite boring alone but oh well. I always have music to listen to. I guess I will throw on the Trivium's Ascendancy, Killswitch, Slipknot, or the new Sevendust I got my hands on. I guess that will be slightly entertaining. Maybe I will get lucky if someone will drop by to keep me coming. I also got some money for food, so I guess I will get some of that as well. I am also going to be getting my hands on some Trivium merchandise. I am getting myself a shirt and their wrist band. I can't wait to get my credit card activated so I can get some things that I have been waiting to get for a while, but I am not going to get into too much detail with that now. Going to surprise everyone with some of the stuff that I am going to get my hands on. Hopefully this week won't be bad. The fact that I have been feeling really down and not myself at all, doesn't really help. It's not exactly something I am not use to. Oh well, I am off to my boring week. Take care all.
-Dan |
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[Dec. 1st, 2005|12:12 am] |
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| | numb | ] |
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| | Killswitch Engage - The End Of Heartache | ] |
Well, another day gone by. Another person who hates me. Another person who thinks I am an asshole. Another person who wants nothing to do with me. I do things I need to do. I have support and still I fuck up. I don't know where I go wrong. I guess it's me. Friend after friend that I care for are leaving me one by one. Where will it stop? Am I really that bad of a person. I don't know. People tell me I am not, but it doesn't seem to be that way. I try to be nice to everyone but I guess it just isn't enough. I don't know what's wrong with me or if there is even anything wrong with me. I don't think there is. I don't know why I've lost the friends that I have lost. It's all very strange to me. God, am I even making any sense. I need help or something. I don't know. So fuckin confused. I mean I have support but, shit I don't know. I never wanted to lose any of these friends, but apparantely there is nothing I can do about it. Well, I am out for now. I don't know what else to say. Farewell everyone.
-Dan |
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[Nov. 29th, 2005|02:58 am] |
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| | Mix Of Everything | ] |
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| | Lamb Of God - Laid To Rest | ] |
Hello. This is to everyone that is talking shit about me and making up things. I am really tired of this shit. Nothing but bullshit talked about behind my back. I mean come on, at least have it to be somewhat true. I am not in your life anymore. You would think these people love me from how much they talk about me. Seriously, if you didn't want to have anything to do with them, wouldn't you just shut the fuck up about it. Make up your fuckin mind. When I am talked about, it's like I am an asshole. You can ask any of my friends, I am the nicest fuckin person you will ever meet. I do everything for everyone and all I seem to get is shit in return from assholes who I thought were friends. If you going to talk shit about me, at least have the fuckin balls to say it to my face. Don't be a fuckin pussy and think you are all big, bad, and perfect. Trust me your not in any way shape or form. It just shows truly how old you really are. I mean, also if you are going to talk shit, at least try not to fuck up about other things and do the same shit you always do. Karma is a bitch and it will bite you in the ass. I am not going to even bother with pieces of shit like that. People like that don't even deserve that. They better not come crawling back, because you will get smacked down to the curb. I can only give people so many chances. Just know when you do, I will show you why you should have never fucked with me. So, stay away from me and continue your shit talking, because when you lose all of your friends and realize what you have done. You will be lost and left with nothing. Not even the one who always supported you, backed you up, and covered for you so many times. So the next time, you decide to and I hear about it, I will just have to say, see who gives a fuck. Because I and my true friends sure as well won't. They know me better than that, unlike you all who do this. Other little things seem to be going wrong as well. I'm finding myself in a current situation that is exactly the same as the last time I went through it and I will be damned if I go through it again. It would hurt me just as it did last time. Anyway, I'm going to go. Farewell...
-Dan |
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[Nov. 24th, 2005|03:11 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | aggravated | ] |
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| | Soilwork - Stabbing The Drama | ] |
Hello everyone. Today was another up and down day. I went over to BCC and got my application in. I have an advisory appointment so I know what classes I need to take for Music Technology. Which was good. That was probably it. My thoughts just went downhill from there. Losing all feeling in life. No love, no happiness, nothing. Just lost with no feeling left. I fucking hate it. Things always turn out this way for me and I have zero control over it. That and with all of this bullshit that is going on around me, it's ridiculous. I am just struggling to pull myself. To keep myself together. It's almost immpossible. That and dealing with other people, it drives me crazy. There was a person who commented on my last entry which I had to delete, which was saying to not point the "invisible" finger at them. First of all, invisible in there doesn't make any sense. Secondly, I never said there name at all whatsoever. I do have other shit going on in my life. Not just with that person. So, all in all, I was talking about someone saying shit about me, without even saying this person's name, this person comes out of no where and said, it wasn't me. Can you say guilty conscious. That gets me to believe they didn't say anything. Yeah... and when I say that, I mean, there is no way in hell I would believe that. If I actually mentioned the person's name, then that would be a different story. Then worse off, that wasn't even the main part of that entry. Not even close, I had this bad thing that happened with my brother and this person didn't care about that. Just clearing there name was all they wanted. Jesus chirst. Thanks for just caring about yourself. That is very much appriecated... Ah well. That just shows the person never cared in the first place and they wonder why I want nothing to do with them, but wait, I forgot. It's all my fault right. I am this big asshole who walks around and treats everyone like shit... Sound ridiculous don't it? Good, because it is. With all of this shit going on, I actually dyed my hair black. I don't know why exactly. Maybe the change was needed. Maybe that is how my heart feels. I don't know. I really don't need this shit at all. So, I am stabbing the drama. Right in the heart. Hopefully this time it will fucking die. Or maybe people will change. Who knows. I do hope for change. I really do...
-Dan |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2005|03:42 pm] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
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| | Static-X - The Enemy | ] |
Yesterday was a huge up and down type of day. For the most part, I was at the mall filling out applications for a job. Even though I heard that a friend of mine might be getting me a job some place else but that has been over a month since he first said that. After that, I went over to a friends house. I then get a call pretty much telling me that someone once again has been spreading shit about me and once again is trying to ruin my life. Thank god that the people that matter most to me don't believe it. Then after I came home, I found out more about it. Which really got to me. Oh and guess what, I fucking hate my brother. Well, I was doing stuff on my computer and he told me i was being a prick because I didn't stop what i was doing to show him something. Then after he left, he said that I said something under my breath which I didn't. Then proceeded to yell and curse at me about it. When I didn't do it for him, he started to sound all sad by saying he always does things for me and never says no to me, which turned into him yelling at me for something I didn't even do. He is always fuckin home. I hate living here and having to deal with his shit every single day. I am serious when I say, I literally want nothing to do with him. He even threanted to hit me. Which made it a whole lot worse. There is nothing I can do either. I either sit here and take the abuse for it or I say something and then end up getting hit for it. I just don't want him to talk to me at all. I hope he will leave me alone. I can't take much more of living here and dealing with this. Well, I hope everyone else is doing better than I am. Take care all...
-Dan |
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[Nov. 17th, 2005|03:16 am] |
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| |  grateful | ] |
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| | Opeth - The Grand Conjuration | ] |
Hello all. I got some cool news. Well, on Friday, I had road crew work to do with Roadrunner Records at the Culture Room. It was for Opeth, which if some of you don't know, they are farely new band to the label and sound pretty good. If you like melodic death metal, I highly recommand that you check them out. I am a big fan of all metal so of course I like them. Anyway, I meet the head of what I do with the road crew, Matt Pileggi. Had a beer with him along with Victor and fellow road crew member Cheryl. Which was funny because she kept on messing around with his hair. It was quite funny. Didn't really get too much of a chance to talk, but I did send him an e-mail about having a good, having a beer with him, and also how he got to where he was. I asked him that because being involved with music is something that I have always really loved and apprcieted. Something that I have always wanted to be apart of. He gave me some very valublable information which will be very useful to me. I then e-mailed him back thanking him very much for his info and time with helping me out and also that I hope to see him again when he comes down, because he is a really cool guy. Anyway, just wanted to spread the news with everyone. Anyway, take care all.
-Dan |
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[Nov. 15th, 2005|06:12 pm] |
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| | accomplished | ] |
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| | Children Of Bodom - In Your Face | ] |
Hello all. I am making a lot of changes to eliminate certain people from my life. I am just tired of certain people making up shit about me and saying that I and they did things that didn't even happen. I am getting rid of all of this bullshit. It ridculous. I didn't do anything to these people, nice to them all the time, and what happens...I get treated like shit. Fuck that. I am not dealing with that shit anymore. I am eliminating it for good. A lot of new things to make my live better and stress free. I also got my car fixed, put some money in it. Even though the body work is a little messed up, it is still driveable so that is good. I just have to wait to get that fixed which will be fine. Anyway, I feeling better than I have been. So, take care all.
-Dan |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2005|08:41 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Slipknot - The Nameless | ] |
My End
It’s funny the way things turn out
The things that are heard
The effects on people’s perceptions
How quickly they can be changed
Just like that
In a blink of an eye
It’s disgusting to live a place such as this
Always having to worry what’s being said
Or what is being done
With every lie that is spread
With every action done against me
Driving the knife deeper into my back
Blood pouring out of me like a fountain
Bringing me closer and closer to the edge of the earth
Drowning in a world of bullshit and drama
Losing all my trust
Losing all my blood
Dying ever so slowly
It’s like watching armageddon to a world I once knew
When will this cease
Only time will tell
Once it brings my end |
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[Oct. 26th, 2005|03:37 pm] |
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| | blank | ] |
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| | Between The Buried And Me - Selkies: The Endless Obsession | ] |
Oh my god, I can't believe that I am finally back. About time I say. It has been a really stressful few days. Hurrican Wilma hit on Monday. I think it was early in the morning when the first part of it hit. I went outside to see what had happen. I got to see something that I was hoping not to see. My car... Apparently one of trees got knocked down and smashed my windsheild and put a huge dent in my hood. My hood I fixed easily just by popping it back into place. This sucks now I can't drive or even get gas until my windsheild is fixed. Also the little piece on the passenger side got fucked up as well. Now I have to "wait" for someone to come out and look at it, which I know is going to be days. I did wash it so it looks better than it did, but I still have to wait. Which really fucking sucks. Dammit. Anyway, back to what I was saying before. The last few days have sucked. Eating shitty food. Never knowing what time it was. Never being able to contact anyone I care about to see if they are alright. Not having much to entertain me besides my cd player and my sp. Living in darkness. Delvoping a cold. One thing I didn't expect. It's just been really hard. It made me realize to charish the stuff I have before the storm came. Like ahem... my car! Also all the other things that we all take for granted. Ah well. I just wanted to post this to let everyone who was wondering how I have been. Hope to talk to you all soon. Farewell all.
-Dan |
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[Oct. 20th, 2005|09:07 pm] |
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| | calm | ] |
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| | Soulfly - Craved Inside | ] |
Hello all once again. I guess this is part two to my two nights of concerts. Well, me and Victor a.k.a. Midnite Blaze, got there a little later than usual. We hung up posters all around the place. Got to watch Soulfly just jamming on stage. Which was really cool. We also hung up posters outside. We saved two just in case we would be able to get those signed for us. It took a while for them even to open the doors because the place was having trouble getting the instruments to all sound right. It got to the point where it was 8 p.m. and me and Victor were the only two standing out on the floor. Then finally a little after 8, they finally opened up the doors and people flooded on in. We did the same thing we did the night before. Passed out a bunch of stuff. Talked with people about the new Soulfly album which was really cool again. The first band that came on was a band named Incite. For those of you who don’t know, this band is headed by Richie Cavalera. This is the nephew of Soulfly lead vocalist Max Cavalera. This was there first time ever touring. The tore up. They were really great for a band that just started touring and having a last name to a man that is legendary in metal also helps. Then Bloodsimple came on. Which was really awesome. I was screaming and singing to every lyric of every song that they played. Especially when “Straight Hate” came on. I almost ended up losing my voice, but to my surprise I didn’t. Then the band Throwdown came on. That was quite a site. That is the biggest and most brutal mosh pit. I heard that they get crazy mosh pits so I guess that they were right. Then finally the moment of truth, Soulfly had finally come on. They opened up with “Babylon” and lead right on in to “Prophecy”. What was really cool was they played “Bleed” That wasn’t the cool part. Max brought up Richie on stage to sing the part that in the recorded version Fred Durst sings it. He made it so much better. That is how it should have originally bleed recorded, but I think Richie was too young at the time when it was recorded. They ended with “Eye For An Eye”, which is probably my favorite song done by Soulfly. After they were done, the crowd stayed there for 10 minutes afterward begging them to come back out. Then after that we went to the merchandise table and we just happen to see Richie right there. It was really cool. We got to talk with him for a bit. Got him to sign the EP of Incite that we just bought. Which sounds very good I may add. I highly suggest you all checking them out whenever you can. Then after that, we went on outside over to Soulfly’s bus. We really wanted to talk and get a picture with Max but unfortunately he wasn’t there. He always seemed like a really private person so it didn’t really surprise me. We did get to chat with Marc Rizzo who is the legendary lead guitar player for Soulfly and their drummer Joe Nunez. We talked with Marc about the album. He thanked us for all of our help with supporting them and getting the word out on the album. He also gave us a cd sampler off the record company that he has a solo project on. It is called Phlamencore records. He is on myspace so I recommend that you all hear the stuff on there. It is really good. Then I got a picture with him and left him on his way. It was a great night. Good times. Good tunes. Good concert. Hell of a time.
-Dan
(Left) Marc Rizzo Lead Shredding Guitarist Of Soulfly(Right) Me :What Is He Looking At: |
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[Oct. 20th, 2005|08:59 pm] |
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| | calm | ] |
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| | Devildriver - Hold Back The Day | ] |
Hello everyone. The Devildriver show was awesome. Me and my friend Victor got there about an hour before doors opened. Saw that there was already posters hung up. Apparently someone sent them posters for the show as well. So, we just hung up stuff where ever we could find to put up posters. Doors opened a little after 7:30. Passed out a bunch of stuff. Talked with a bunch of people about the album. Saw the first band that was up called Mensera. They were pretty good. Had a pretty decent sound. Then a bad named A Dozen Furies came on. They were really good. Got the crowd really fire up. Then, the reason why I came to this show, Devildriver, finally came on. The crowd was really on fire for them. They were really fucking awesome. Unfortunately their was some asshole who brought a banner that said “Dildodriver” which was really fucked up. That really pissed Dez off. He kept on yelling at the guy telling him to fucking bring. Once after they got off Dez ran on after him. I didn’t get to see what happened. After that, we walked back to their tour bus. Then Dez came outside and talked with us. Told us the he went up to the guy and told him that if he wants to do something then do it. The guy was 6'7 and Dez is 5'7. I guess his overwhelming stage presence did it. That and I don’t know a soul who would want to fuck with Dez. So, he then thank us for all of the work that we had and how much he appreciated it. I mean of course we would do it. It’s fucking Devildriver, why wouldn’t we? We had a great conversation with him. He even joked around with me a bit. which was really cool. Then we finally got to get a picture with him. It was funny after we did it. He said “a pose your mother would be proud off” He then gave me hug and I let him go on his way. It was amazing. I loved every minute of it. It was great. So, how did the next concert go with Soulfly. Well, I guess you will just have to read the next blog to find that out.
-Dan
:Left: My Friend Victor :Middle: Dez Fafara Lead Singer Of Devildriver :Right: Me |
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[Oct. 17th, 2005|04:58 am] |
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| | Wierd Mood | ] |
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| | Arch Enemy - Dead Eyes See No Future | ] |
Your Enemy
Trying to find a way out
Looking toward a higher source
Created by others
Lead to believe all these years
In a manufactured god
What was promised has been failed
No help coming
It’s time to break free
I’m tired of dying slowly
Choking on their every lie
I will not stand defeat
I’ve been in this struggle for way too long
This bullshit will end forever
No longer will the blood of the pure be shed
Vengeance will be won
This suffering will be done
I’ll take this knife out of my back
I’ll strike it straight into the heart of the uncaring world
Punish those who have crossed me
You will never see it coming
Then when I’m done
You’ll know who I am
I am
Your enemy |
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[Oct. 14th, 2005|08:44 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
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| | A Perfect Circle - The Outsider | ] |
Hey all. I had a crazy fucking day today. Not really too happy about it. Well, I had an interview over at Arby’s today at 3:30. I am about ready to leave around 3:15-3:20. Then I go to start my car and the battery is completely shot. So, I call my friend who works there and told him the deal and since it isn’t that far he told me to work or run on over there. So I am moving my ass as fast as I can. Of course with my luck, I get really fucking light headed and start to get really dizzy to the point where I don’t know where the fuck I am and I literally almost pass out there right on the sidewalk. Pretty much fading in and out. So, I am pretty much sitting there on the sidewalk, trying my hardest to fucking get up and shake it off. The more tired the worse off I got. Then it must have been an hour or so that I was sitting there. I didn’t know what the fuck to do and I can’t really move too well so that didn’t help at all. I wanted to call him and let him know what was going on but one, I didn’t want to get him upset because he sounded it when I told him my car couldn’t start, and second, I could barely move. So, I don’t know what time it was, but a friend of mine was driving home. He saw that I didn’t look good, picked me up, and drove me home. I never told my parents what actually happened. I told them that I didn’t even have an interview that it was cancelled. After that, I just passed out in my room. Right now, I feel really shitty, because I was never able to call my friend to let him know what the deal was. Which really wasn’t my fault because the way I was feeling. That and I think the battery fell out of my phone on the side walk because I can’t find it anywhere. If my car would have started, I think I would have been more screwed then I already was, because I was feeling the effects of it before my car started. So, my day really sucked and it still is because I still feel like shit. I feel like if I open my mouth that I will throw up. So, I apologize to my friend for not being able to call him. Trust me, if I could I would have. Anyway, the effects are starting to wear on me again. See you all later.
-Dan |
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[Oct. 8th, 2005|11:45 am] |
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| |  distressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Slipknot - Purity | ] |
When I'm Not There
The fighting
The bullshit
It never changes
Constantly being put through shit
Constantly being forced to feel like shit
Being accused of things that I don’t do
From those who put me in this cursed world
Threatening to take away the what very little I have
Never thinking much of me
Never trusting me
Never being able to talk for them always quick to judge me
Never been given a chance
Always hiding shit from me
Always being looked down upon
Having a brother
Who thinks he is a king in his own mind
Living in a house where I never have a say
Hides what they truly are in front of others
Nice scam I say
How wonderfully put out it was
No one will ever notice will they
No one but me
How perfectly that works right
The bullshit you feed to others
Feels like poison to my soul
You think you are just so perfect
I can see it in your eyes
Whenever I talk to you
I feel like I am talking to a wall
What else do you want to do to me
I’m not sure you could make me feel any worse
But I am sure you love to try
You better watch what you do
What you say
One day
When you get older
When you need someone to take care of you
When there is no one but me
What are you going to do
When I’m not there |
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